I am sorry mom!!!!!

                                                                       (Photo courtesy Google Image)

I still remember the blood smeared on the floor. I couldn't identify what was that and where it came from. That time my dad went on tour…Me, my little sis and my mom was left at home. In the morning, when I went for a toilet, it was 2 am, my mom was not there, I saw blood on the bathroom and I couldn't understand what was happening, 

In the morning my cousin came to me and said mom had a little headache, was taken for treatment.  My mom always used to fell sick. So I did not  worry,    me and my sis was left alone at home.

And later my sister was taken to my cousin because we were having school, but I denied their request. I requested that I am staying here at home and they admitted it!!!

From that day I was  free …I was left alone at home … I started bunking from class, I  called my friends at my home , started enjoying  every night …drinking and smoking !!!  I started hanging out with my friends.

One month past, I kept on doing the same thing. And later my cousin told me that my mom wants to meet, so she told me to come to Siliguri hospital. My sister and  all my cousin   left but I didn't. I refused my mom request and I heard my dad was also there with my mom. I didn't like to go there to my mom …I didn't take any concern about my mom!!! 

After two days when I was at home alone, I saw the sparkling light of  the car,  I gazed from my window and saw dad was waiting for me,  when I went for a help …I saw my  mom !!! 

Tears rolled down from my eyes, I was awfully heartbreaking to see my mom, she was very weak and thin. And there was no single hair on her head and eye brow...But still I saw her sweet smile on her face upon seeing me. I was speechless and couldn't tell any think to my mom! Tears started flowing endlessly from my eyes. I never thought these things would happen to my mom. 

My dad saw my tears, and he took me to his bed room and

He said.’’ Son what happened to you? You didn't turn up to meet your mom? You know … what happened? Mom suffered from uterus cancer and she has under gone Camo-Therapy…you know she died once but she came back from death, she was searching you and expected that you could come to meet her.’’

                                                  (After 4 month  from treatment) 

Suddenly I heard my mom calling Dad. After that I felt sorry to my mom. I was very sad that time.

Second time, I heard my mom calling me. When she saw me, she smiled me again; I was sad,      though I didn't take note of my mom, my mom was so concerned about me…

That day I couldn't sleep… I was felled with sadness and regrets.

One fine day, I went to my mom and asked.’’ Mom when you were sick, why didn't you wake me up.’’          That time my mom gave me the surprise replied. when I was sick, I couldn't wake you up because I don't want to disturb you and your sis   sleep, I thought let my children sleep in peace …and sorry I couldn't inform you.’’

I knew my mom became sad with me but she didn't show to me…but now am trying to bring every smile and happiness on her face. 

I love you mom and I am so sorry!!!!

                                                         (Mom and dad happy now  )

This incident is true… it happened to me 3 years back…but still every night this incident hunt me!!

I have been hiding this story for 3 years but today I don't want to hide any more I want to share so that everyone could learn from this incident!!!                               

''You  Know god couldn't be anywhere, so he created parents.’’ 

Plez … don't hurt your parents like me. Never make unhappy to them…they are everything, to us!  Obey them …be good and helpful when they are living!!!

My prayers are with all the parents and to their sons and daughters …!

Alas …Aie (mom) your son never gonna make that same mistake...never ever…Now he will be always there with you!!!

Love you always aie(mother) !!!

Thank you for reading   :)

I am nono jimmy!!!

I am nono jimmy and  I have appeared class 10^th BCSE paper in 2012, Am running 17 this year and I study in punakha higher secondary school.

Nowadays   I always reflect to myself   that   Am I a good son to my parents? Am I a good friend to my friends? , Am I a good student to my school and to teachers? Or am I a good brother to my sister? I always put up those questions to myself because I have seen youth of now days’ shifting a lot .I was also one of them. Before, my life was like thorny plants. I was not a good son nor a good student and a good brother, whenever I think of those days I feel mortification, I was not a good son, I never took note of my parents, I never pursued their advice,

I kept on making my parents, teachers, friends and sister discontented, the worst thing that I did in my life is that I always used to beat my little sister, I think   one day I have to bear the  same thing, as it is truly said that ‘’what goes around comes around.’’  Now I feel very sorry to my sister. In case in academic I brought poor result, which made my parents and my teachers unhappy.

And soon my father didn’t want me to stay with him, I was send to Punakha School which was far away from my home Gomtu, after I was admitted to that school, I still remember during my class, I had difficulties in speaking Dzongkha, I was very poor in Dzongkha though I was Bhutanese, during my home days I never had conversation in dzongkha with my friends. Everything was in Lothsampa, Lothsampa was born in me, I would talk better than dzongkha. In punakha, at first my life was dreadful and ever thing was new to me, I was like a fish out of water. Soon everything fell in place, more the days passed I began to miss my home, parents and all. Later, the good thing was, I was able to speak better in dzongkha.

My life was changed by the families of punakha higher secondary school, I began to experience my life from a different site, my life was better than the previous , I became fresh and also I was enhanced  awfully in academic, my parents, teachers and relatives were happy with me. I felt everything in bliss, the sky fell upon me, I stopped drinking alcohol and everything and soon I became attracted to studies, especially reading, writing stories and poems. My friends ,adopted  brothers  and sisters helped me in every single step I took, they treated me like their own brother,  from that day I learned  the value of sister and brother. And when I was back home.

Soon my father started teaching me new things, one thing I noticed was    that my parents started helping me and was interested in me. I began to stay with my father and I started writing poems, stories and all.  I started reading different types of books too. My life was different from before.

And from my mother I learned how to cook ,  furthermore I have stopped bullying my sister, now she is my best friend and am thrilled to see every smile on her face, one thing is that I stopped talking Lothsampa.

 BFF (kunzang)

At this time my life is not the same, now it has changed into big beautiful scented flower, ‘’when love is greatest, words are few.’’  Today I want to thank everyone who helped me. Now I see my life more beautiful, hopeful and happy. My prayers and wishes are with all the people of Bhutan. Never give up on things easily; you never know what happens in life. Its in your hand and it’s you that counts.

 Right now I still doubt that, Am I a good son to my parents? Am I a good friend to my friends? , Am I a good student to my school and teachers? Or am I a good brother to my sister? Am trying to be good in every field. I anticipate that one day I may be good son, student, brother and a good citizen of Bhutan!!!!

Message to my close one!!!!!                

Though I don’t have wealth to provide you with luxurious life, but I have wealthy heart of love, care and affection. Though I am not brave enough to fight against evils, but am good enough to pray. Though am not an intelligent who can discover the world but am simple ordinary boy who can wish you ‘’best of luck in everything you do’’. Do good .Be good, expect for good. ‘’good things will come to those who waits’’.

Thank you for reading!!!!!!